I had something happened to me couple days ago from one of the in-laws. I am a busy person trying to focus on school and I put myself in a library every day for over 5 hours doing homework relaxing, I am only in my room for lunch and to sleep I don't stay cooped up in my room. When I am in class and someone Facebook me I either ignore it or talk short. Well during spring break there was an article made about my husband, it talked about who his dad is and who is grandfather was... It did not say anything about his mom. Well I didn't send that in I didn't even know it was going to be made, the day it was publish into the newspaper my father sent me a picture of it. And of course I am proud that my husband was in the newspaper so I posted it on Facebook, and it became a huge deal with my husbands mom, grandmother, and aunt. His grandmother sent me a message while I am in class asking me if I know who wrote that I said "Nope" I know I should have said I have no idea. But I'm trying to focus on school and not a newspaper article, the smartest thing to get to the end of it is calling the newspaper place to see who made that part of the newspaper and go from there. If they think I wrote that article do you really think I wouldn't add my name into it as his wife? My father sent it to me I wasn't even in that town! Then I go to my husbands aunt to help my cousins out to get their music out there on the school radio that I am on. And his aunt started questioning me about it, and then started going off about my one word response. I kept my cool before I was going to explode... DOES ANYONE THINK ABOUT ME?????? Does anyone ask me how am I doing? How I am handling the deployment?? They also don't know how I have this blog, and most of them will not know because I don't want my everything out there. The only people who have asked me how I am doing and all is my husbands sister, brother, and his cousins. I am trying to be so strong for my husband but even the strongest people have to break down. I forgive them and I hope they forgive me for that one time short word, "Nope". I don't do it anymore I just ignore it til I get out of class. She has moved on now its time for everyone else to move on. I expect Family to always be there, don't get me wrong I love my new family everyone in it, just wish sometimes things don't happen to make it worse. Just want to be drama free and I know that will never happen where ever you go. Just wish the family was all stress free and happy with everything! But what our problem is that we stress so much about every little thing and I for sure know I am not innocent about it either but I am working on it and I don't show my worry unless it is to certain people everything else is like I am a clown and hide it under my makeup and be funny and happy. I am so tired of acting nice and happy to everyone where sometimes I am so paranoid or angry. When I talk to my husband I am happy and fine, just when days are rough and I haven't talked to him a whole lot I get sometimes emotional. My side of the family and some of my husband side of the family is always there but I am always expecting everyone to be there.
~Kait
"All happy families are alike; each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way."
-Leo Tolstoy
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